Cloggers

Dark cloud, cold wind and drizzling rain hang over my head.  Is it a sign that wintry days are coming?  Squirrels piling wood chips and carrying branches in their holes underneath the pine trees..Could it be that they know something is coming ahead?  I also begin to notice that grapes are ripening, plums are already picked, oranges are beginning to turn yellow, lemon grass are fully grown...it may just be that it is a sign of changing time...

As I sit here, gazing through my window to opened plain and vineyards nearby; I begin to miss those days when I am all there with my parents, brothers and sisters...playing board games like Pictionary and Monopoly with my siblings and enjoying those Saturdays and Sundays, home-cooked meals, typically kuy teov or chicken curry which are obviously my mother and sister's favorite dishes.

Yet those days are over now....

Serenity and loneliness set in...Yes, I know that I have grown of age and I am not like I once used to be.

I am alone facing the world.  I catch plane rides like riding the bus to school and that is apart of what I do...I hop from one country to another to sell things that may cause harm...may cause chaos in the world...Yet I do it in the name of a safer world...Can I be just so selfish or can I be just paranoid of what could happen if these things are getting into the wrong hands?

Nevertheless, I realize that without them...our world is unable to deter threat for we know that evil is in what every men do...I shall not let it be...but it is my mission in life to ensure that global peace is ensured with the might of arsenals and diplomacy. It is after all, a reality..nothing more..nothing less.

Rain drizzling and fog sets in ...I can no longer see the fields of my dream...I am dazzled by the strong wind splashing rain drops on my window...I could only imagine how strong it is outside my house and in the fields...I sit upright...and could only imagine those days when I was a child riding my bike to go fishing...it was  cold and numbness would set in on my my extremities - hands and toes....barely making it home on an old bike with a couple of friends...

Till this day, I have always wondered about those younger years....nothing more and nothing less...Young and wild...carefree..hanging out with the boys...jumping in the water from the cliff naked. in the nearby lake ..not having to worry about any thing..but only to enjoy those moments in time....I just love the thoughts of going back through those moments and time.

I remember those days when I first fell in love with my best friend, Angel.  I never knew what love was..but had these inkling feelings about her that she was very special and different from other girls.

I used to have sweat on the palm of my hands just talking to her.  I stuttered just answering simple questions...And always so happy just to see her on the bus and I would lurk to sit behind her seat just to get that awesome aroma coming out of her...It was the age of the innocent and first love..Those were my high school years.

Angel actually asked me out to the movie after school one day..It was like a dream that came true.  We had our first kiss in the movie theater and that was the moment that changed my life forever.  Her love and affection for me made me work so hard in life to achieve things that I never once ever dreamed of achieving.

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